Life is....

I have had a cloud hanging over my head. I shouldn't, a lot of exciting things are happening, but still the depression hangs there ominously. I can't seem to shake it. I get to meet Patty Duke tomorrow, a get together with her and a few others, wow! How exciting is that? I have admired Patty Duke and been a fan for a long time!

I found out today that I have a gallery show June to July, how awesome is that? A local art gallery set up a show for me at a chic beer and pizza joint. I mean this is what I have been striving for right?

So why does this cloud linger? I am over this, I have moved past this depression, I have changed my attitudes I claim good things, I, I, I, damn this depression.....will it never go away?

Of course after learning about Picasso, Matisse, Jackson Pollock and others I am in the company of great! So I should be glad for the depression, maybe it is a gift, maybe that depression is the very same thing that feeds my creativity, maybe it is the thing that makes my artwork great. Maybe it is because of what ever causes the depression causes the creative part of my brain to explode with sparks of ideas that I can use to create works of art?

Now if the depression will just hold off long enough that I can study well enough to get through my final. I pray it does. Because when that fog settles in it is hard to focus on anything.