My Birthday Today!

Today is my 48th birthday! I don't feel 48 years old. I feel like I am still in my 20's....where does time go?
I had to work today and that means that I spent most of my day alone, in "the cave" my office as I have come to call it. It is painted black and is very dark, and NO ONE ever comes in my office....it is very lonely. But today I was busy and didn't take notice of it so much today.
I came home and my mom had fixed a great meal of roast, potatoes and cooked carrots! Yum! My favorite meal and then topped off with a sugar cream pie. My boys came in from their dad's house and my oldest son brought his friend - who is a girl - I dearly love her but they are just friends...maybe someday it will be more.
Over all is has been a okay day, but I am extremely tired and want to go to bed! I guess I really am getting old when I want to go to bed at 7:30 at night.
I blew out the candle on my cake and wished for a new job! Here is hoping that those birthday wishes really do come true.
Tomorrow would have been my 25th wedding anniversary had we stayed married. As it is we only made it to 18. I can't help but wonder what life would have been had we stayed married....I think I am better off. I just wonder how the kids might have been different - mostly my daughter - had we still been married....would she have avoided the pitfalls of her anger and rebellion? One has to wonder. Life really is all about choices.
Well enough for today, I will try to post more later this week. I have had the worst time with my daughter lately. I will share the story here later....a short preview would be - don't ever get homemade tatoos!